Tonight I've spent such a powerful time with the Lord.  I'm just thinking and praying, so please think and pray with me.  I was going through the journals that I have kept since 1998 and I have to ask the question: "Where is my spiritual life going?" Where the hunger that was once displayed, where is the passion for the lost that use to overwhelm me and break my heart to the point it use to hurt? 

I want to be love sick for the Lord.  I remember the time I first was walking with my wife when she was not my wife.  When she was a friend and we were growing in our love for each other.  That summer flew by and I think back of how I use to break the speed limit to go and see her.  I would cancel plans just so I could be with her for only five minutes.  That is the love I am seeking for my Lord. 

I want to be a man with a heart that follows God - no substitutes!  I want a drive of passion that is unstoppable; I want that 1st love feeling.  Whenever I approach a time to be before God I want to have those stomach laughs, the feelings of closeness that the verse where it says Ask in my name and it will be done is such an explosion in the spiritual realm that things are happening.  Friends, I want things to happen. 

Here's a question that is heavy on my heart:  If you're not praying daily to the living God, do you know Him? I have the relationship with my wife because I have talked to her day in and day out.  Now listen, if I stopped talking to my wife and came to here only when there was an issue my marriage would be in shambles.  The same is with my God.  That relationship should be a constant dialogue back and forth.